I'm not satisfied with my life. There, I said it. Bloggers, and people in general really, like to portray this perfect Valencia filtered lifestyle on the internet and make out like everything is tip top and perfect. This definitely isn't the case. I'm not content with where my life is headed and I want to change that. Why settle for anything less than what you want?
I don't know how many times I've mentioned getting into shape on here now, but this time, I have to mean it. After slowly putting on more and more weight, and getting noticeably unhealthier, I really have to make a change. Not only for vanity reasons, while I might not be in love with my body I certainly don't loathe it, but because I'm annoyed at myself for letting it get this far. I always said, if I went up a clothes size I'd pull myself together, but that ship has sailed let me tell you... I'm not overweight, and being a specific clothes size has never really concerned me, more the thought of me being responsible for making my body change so much. I'm also preeeetty unhealthy, which can be a little embarrassing. I want to work on getting healthier, stronger and fitter. I hope this changes me not only physically, but mentally too.
While I'm pretty organised when it comes to work and university, other aspects of my life are a little messy. I have a lot of clutter, and no matter how many times I tidy my room it always seems to look a mess right away again. After coming across a YouTube video randomly last week, I had a bit of a revelation. Why do I need so much stuff? I don't use most of it, I don't touch most of it more than once a month at best, so why do I still have it? I plan to have a serious purge of my bedroom and other belongings, and this time be absolute ruthless. I've come across a fab cleaning/purging method so keep an eye our for more on that in the future!
Similarly, with my wardrobe. Despite filling two wardrobes, I still go through the whole "I have nothing to wear!" shenanigan every single morning and it's getting a little boring now. The amount of money I spend on clothing scares me a little; I'm not too good with budgeting. I've been considering a capsule wardrobe for quite some time now, and it just hit me this weekend: make one. The idea of having a set number of clothes that all work together, create so many different outfits and will help to save money really appeals to me. Whether I'll actually be able to stick to it is a different matter entirely, but I'm really excited to give it a go.
Both these points promote the same thing: I'd rather spend money on experiences than material goods, for these are the things we truly take with us and can always keep. For me, a clean, tidy, organised environment equals a clean, tidy, organised mind and life. This is something I strive for. I want to love the things that matter and stop getting hung up on unimportant things.
Now it's time to better myself and create a more positive outlook on life. Forget the negativity, work hard and work well, because that is what I want. I want to be a stronger person mentally and physically, I want to make memories with the people I love and with new friends, I want to love and appreciate life, the little things just as much as the large. I want to love myself, and loving myself starts with taking care of myself and my body. I want to have a clean and organised environment where I can thrive and focus on more important things than what pair of black skinny jeans I'm going to choose today.
This is a bit of a different post for me today, but I've had a rush of passion recently for the above and thought it was time to share it with you all. From now, I hope that amyjanealice will feature new and different content, and I'm so excited to get working on it. July is going to be my month.
"Do something today that your future self will thank you for"